So, spoilers.
I'll never feel happiness or hope ever again.
Any time anything good seems to peek over the horizon, I'll know it's just a mirage to make me suffer. Any time I have a sliver of faith on anything, I'll know better and purge it out of my heart before it turns around to cruelly gnaw at me from the inside. There is no way whatsoever to happiness and closure on either side of the Fourth Wall until the sweet, sweet embrace of Lady Death comes for you, pushing you into the final relief of oblivion while underlining how meaningless it all was.
Thank you, Akamatsu Ken, for teaching me how truly pointless existence is. Your manga sucks, by the way.
Suffice to say, well, I didn't like the spoilers.
Soooo... Fate Grand Order's really nifty, huh? I think, I think I'll go play that right now, y-yeah, ha hah.
EDIT: While this is indeed a bummer for me, as a matter of fact I'm mostly just hamming the scene up, mostly so I can have a bitter laugh instead of crying, because my personal life is a royal mess right now and I'm depressed as hell. That wouldn't change that much with this or any other result this situation would have had, but I still thought of letting some steam out when I read about it. Please don't take me very seriously as I just don't deserve it.