Harry discovers the truth about his Saving-People-Thing in the summer after his fifth year.
In the summer after the battle at the ministry Harry experiences problems with his hand. He fears that scars that Umbridge inflicted during her detentions might have become infected and sneaks out of the Durseleys' home to travel to London and St. Mungos.
At the wizarding hospital Harry learns that writing something in your own blood over and over again while thinking more or less the same thing and feeling very strongly about it as your magic flares wildly can have consequences. Harry's healer fears that Harry might have unintentionally made some sort of primitive blood vow to tell the truth when Umbridge tried to torture him into recanting it. He makes a complicated scan of Harry's mind and magic.
Harry does not understand the procedure or its results. When the Healer later shows him a picture, Harry can only see a collection of differently coloured blobs surrounded by numbers, Greek letters, Runes and symbols that Harry does not recognize. The Healer points out a small slightly of-colour blob at the edge of the structure. The Healer assures him that this is the result of the primitive blood vow and tells him that its shape, size, position and colour are good news and that Harry's problem should go away soon on its own without trouble. The Healer explains that a human's mind is constantly growing and changing as someone gets older and that it can heal from all sorts of injuries on its own. The healer gives Harry an example of someone who has been under a love potion for a long time. Eventually the mind of the affected person will organically grow around the foreign artifact and adapt to its presence. When the love potion is withheld after some time the thus created structure might very well hold on their own despite the absence of the original artifact. Or the whole thing might collapse catastrophically overturning lots of acquired behaviour traits and views.
It turns out that while the blood quill did not do any irreparable damage the test did reveal something else of concern. There is another group of artifacts on the picture. Harry has no idea how to interpret it, but the black spider-like connected structure do not look like a good thing to him.
The healer explains that the colour means that this was not something that Harry did to himself but something that was done to him. Unlike the blood quill blob the structure are of foreign origin and not using Harry's own magic. They also won't change or adapt and are basically fixed in place. The fact that they are much closer to the centre and further from the edge means that they were likely placed some time ago, most likely shortly before Harry first learned that magic was real.
Harry is confused and wonders who might have done this tom him and why and most importantly what exactly they do. Might Quirrel have placed these compulsions when he first met him?
The healer wonders if Harry noticed any changes in his behavior around that time. Harry explains that so much changed for him back then that it is hard to say. Harry went from being neglected and bullied to being popular and famous. He suddenly had real friends and people he could trust so of course he would act in ways he had not before.
The Healer makes some guesses what the structure might do and Harry latches onto the words selflessness and forgiveness among the suggestions. Harry thinks back to what his life was like before Hogwarts and he starts having an awful suspicion.
The Durslesys never taught Harry to be selfless or forgiving. Harry remembers a small fat boy with a stutter at muggle school who almost got bullied as much as Harry himself. Harry never helped him and even passively encouraged the other kids picking on him so he himself would not get picked on. Harry remembers a friend he had at school. A girl with braces and freckles who was almost as much an outsider as he was. They were not friends but the helped each other. One day the girl had to choose between Harry and a chance to join the popular crowd. She choose the chance to be popular and abandoned Harry. Harry never forgave her for that and when she later was kicked out of the popular group again and tried to befriend Harry again he rebuffed her even after she tried to apologize. Harry also remembers that time that Dudley almost got run over by a car. Dudley had been standing in the middle of the street after retrieving a football that went wild and had not seen the approaching car. Harry had seen it from where he had been standing but he had kept silent and not shouted a warning to Dudley. Luckily for his cousin the driver had managed to break in time. Dudley probably did not even realize how close he came to being seriously injured or even killed that day.
Those actions and other were not the actions of a Chosen One. The hero that the wizarding world expected had to be selfless and forgiving. He had to be the sort who would help those who had slighted him and even risk his live for those who had betrayed him. Harry fears that Dumbeldore might have helped things along when he discovers Harry's character by implanting these compulsions into him, chief among them the one that Hermione called his saving people thing.
Harry is torn. On the one side he knows that Dumbeldore die this for the greater good and that Harry actually benefited from it. The old Harry would not have come to the rescue of Hermione or Ginny, he would never have forgiven Ron for abandoning him during the tri-wizard tournament, he would not have started a club to help students who in previous years had worn potter stinks badges and accused him of being behind the petrifications of various students. The old Harry would not have stuck out his neck to help warn a wizarding world full of people who wrote stupid letter to the editor about him to the prophet. Harry clearly would not be the person who he was today with these compulsions and he feels that he is a better person with them.
On the other hand Harry can't help but think that his eagerness to forgive Dumbeldore might actually be cause by the compulsions and that without them he might not think that risking his life for a bunch of ungrateful sheep is something to aspire to.
Harry has to decided on whether or not he should try to have these compulsions removed.
In the summer after the battle at the ministry Harry experiences problems with his hand. He fears that scars that Umbridge inflicted during her detentions might have become infected and sneaks out of the Durseleys' home to travel to London and St. Mungos.
At the wizarding hospital Harry learns that writing something in your own blood over and over again while thinking more or less the same thing and feeling very strongly about it as your magic flares wildly can have consequences. Harry's healer fears that Harry might have unintentionally made some sort of primitive blood vow to tell the truth when Umbridge tried to torture him into recanting it. He makes a complicated scan of Harry's mind and magic.
Harry does not understand the procedure or its results. When the Healer later shows him a picture, Harry can only see a collection of differently coloured blobs surrounded by numbers, Greek letters, Runes and symbols that Harry does not recognize. The Healer points out a small slightly of-colour blob at the edge of the structure. The Healer assures him that this is the result of the primitive blood vow and tells him that its shape, size, position and colour are good news and that Harry's problem should go away soon on its own without trouble. The Healer explains that a human's mind is constantly growing and changing as someone gets older and that it can heal from all sorts of injuries on its own. The healer gives Harry an example of someone who has been under a love potion for a long time. Eventually the mind of the affected person will organically grow around the foreign artifact and adapt to its presence. When the love potion is withheld after some time the thus created structure might very well hold on their own despite the absence of the original artifact. Or the whole thing might collapse catastrophically overturning lots of acquired behaviour traits and views.
It turns out that while the blood quill did not do any irreparable damage the test did reveal something else of concern. There is another group of artifacts on the picture. Harry has no idea how to interpret it, but the black spider-like connected structure do not look like a good thing to him.
The healer explains that the colour means that this was not something that Harry did to himself but something that was done to him. Unlike the blood quill blob the structure are of foreign origin and not using Harry's own magic. They also won't change or adapt and are basically fixed in place. The fact that they are much closer to the centre and further from the edge means that they were likely placed some time ago, most likely shortly before Harry first learned that magic was real.
Harry is confused and wonders who might have done this tom him and why and most importantly what exactly they do. Might Quirrel have placed these compulsions when he first met him?
The healer wonders if Harry noticed any changes in his behavior around that time. Harry explains that so much changed for him back then that it is hard to say. Harry went from being neglected and bullied to being popular and famous. He suddenly had real friends and people he could trust so of course he would act in ways he had not before.
The Healer makes some guesses what the structure might do and Harry latches onto the words selflessness and forgiveness among the suggestions. Harry thinks back to what his life was like before Hogwarts and he starts having an awful suspicion.
The Durslesys never taught Harry to be selfless or forgiving. Harry remembers a small fat boy with a stutter at muggle school who almost got bullied as much as Harry himself. Harry never helped him and even passively encouraged the other kids picking on him so he himself would not get picked on. Harry remembers a friend he had at school. A girl with braces and freckles who was almost as much an outsider as he was. They were not friends but the helped each other. One day the girl had to choose between Harry and a chance to join the popular crowd. She choose the chance to be popular and abandoned Harry. Harry never forgave her for that and when she later was kicked out of the popular group again and tried to befriend Harry again he rebuffed her even after she tried to apologize. Harry also remembers that time that Dudley almost got run over by a car. Dudley had been standing in the middle of the street after retrieving a football that went wild and had not seen the approaching car. Harry had seen it from where he had been standing but he had kept silent and not shouted a warning to Dudley. Luckily for his cousin the driver had managed to break in time. Dudley probably did not even realize how close he came to being seriously injured or even killed that day.
Those actions and other were not the actions of a Chosen One. The hero that the wizarding world expected had to be selfless and forgiving. He had to be the sort who would help those who had slighted him and even risk his live for those who had betrayed him. Harry fears that Dumbeldore might have helped things along when he discovers Harry's character by implanting these compulsions into him, chief among them the one that Hermione called his saving people thing.
Harry is torn. On the one side he knows that Dumbeldore die this for the greater good and that Harry actually benefited from it. The old Harry would not have come to the rescue of Hermione or Ginny, he would never have forgiven Ron for abandoning him during the tri-wizard tournament, he would not have started a club to help students who in previous years had worn potter stinks badges and accused him of being behind the petrifications of various students. The old Harry would not have stuck out his neck to help warn a wizarding world full of people who wrote stupid letter to the editor about him to the prophet. Harry clearly would not be the person who he was today with these compulsions and he feels that he is a better person with them.
On the other hand Harry can't help but think that his eagerness to forgive Dumbeldore might actually be cause by the compulsions and that without them he might not think that risking his life for a bunch of ungrateful sheep is something to aspire to.
Harry has to decided on whether or not he should try to have these compulsions removed.